change is good!

i decided to make some changes and thought my hair would be the easiest place to start! i was getting tired of it being so long and red, so i got it cut and colored it darker. now, the color is supposed to be dark brown but it comes across more as black. i'm alright with that though since i was really, really ready for a change! and the hair cut is going towards a good cause and being sent to locks of love, all 12inches.

i've been doing pretty well with my workouts...i get to the y at least 4 times a week. my goal is 5, but some days i just don't have the motivation! of course these days with my procrastination habit and the fact that it's christmas time, it's a wonder i even get out of the house with all the things i have to do! i'm getting things done though and even plan on visiting a ymca while we're in ga so that i don't mess up my workout. i know that if i stop going too many days i'll just give up and i really don't want to do that now...especially since i can't stop eating cookies this time of year!

so, change is good and i hope this one step towards change will lead me down the path to more changes...like not procrastinating!

MOMMY, let's decorate the tree!

my three year old keeps screaming at me..."mommy! mommy! let's decorate the tree! i want to put the purple one on!" and i keep telling her "not right now, we'll do it today, i promise". she's so into decorating our little 3 foot tabletop tree and that's exciting and a bit frustrating, too! i'm not quite ready for the christmas decorating, but it's hard to explain that to a 3 year old so i just keep saying that we'll get to it; that tends to calm her a bit for a little while and she moves on to something else for at least a little bit!

while my daughter is all into decorating the tree and putting the lights outside, my son is telling me that he's not sure santa exists! he'll be 9 this christmas eve and i was really hoping i could get one more santa year out of him. he told me the other night that he's not sure if he still believes in santa, but he's also not sure if he doesn't...so he's on the fence about santa and i just don't know what to do about it! now, i'm just hoping he doesn't mess things up for his sister...she still needs to have more santa years!

so, guess i'm off to decorate the little tree and put out the little snowmen lights outside all to please my little girl! and trying to figure out how to get my near 9 year old to believe in santa just one more year!

will the blog slacker please stand up!

ok, so i'm not the best blogger, but at least i consistently ignored both my blogs not just this one! i'd like to say that i've just been so busy working out and that i'm ten pounds thinner, but sadly that's just not the case! i have been working out, taking only a couple sickness breaks, but i'm not ten pounds thinner and that's not what's kept me from blogging. truth is i'm just lazy, plain and simple! i'd like to change and keep thinking that someday i will, but until then i just go on my merry, little lazy way!

i will say that i'm happy about the fact that i do workout on a pretty consistent basis and i feel really good about myself for working out, especially on days that i really don't want to workout! but i like to eat pizza and french fries too much to stop exercising...there's candy, cookies, cake, and brownies, too! now i will go on my lazy way and plan to blog again tomorrow, or at least some other time this week!

i'm not a patient person...

i'm not a very patient person and that patience was severely tested today at a doctor's office! a little backstory first, though...wednesday night stephen closed his bedroom door on jordan's finger and somehow she ripped off her pinky fingernail. it was an accident and stephen feels very bad about it. luke wanted me to take jordan to see the doctor to make sure there's no infection, so i called and made an appointment at a new place, closer to home. the appointment was for 11:30am and since i knew i'd have paperwork to fill out because she would be a new patient, we got there at 11:20am and that's when the waiting game started!

we waited in the waiting room for 45 minutes and i wanted to leave after 30 but jordan said she wanted to see the doctor...imagine that, a 3 year old who wants to see the doctor! but she was being relatively good waiting considering the lack of toys or kids books (mental note, pediatrics waiting rooms are much better then general practice ones) so we waited. she entertained herself with watching the fish in the big tank, "reading" a magazine, taking off her shoes, and digging through my purse. they finally called us back to the exam room and that started the second round of the waiting game!

while waiting this time, jordan asked me questions about the things in the room, we talked about going to the store, she sat on the 3 different chairs in the room, and then we both gave up being patient! she decided that she wanted to go home and i decided she was right! we waited in that room for another 45 minutes and i just couldn't take it any longer! quite frankly the fact that i made it that long is a near miracle for me! we headed out of the exam room and up to the front desk were i let the check out woman know that we hadn't seen the doctor and just couldn't wait any longer. she apologized and then went back to let our nurse know that we were leaving, both women returned a couple minutes later and the nurse said "oh, well the doctor can see you now." i said no, we're not waiting any longer, we're ready to leave. i was very nice and not loud, but there was a lot of impatience in my tone when i said i wanted my $100 back (our insurance just covers well child visits so we had to pre-pay $100 before even seeing the doctor). she did void the change and we walked out, never to return there again!

i've had issues with waiting at the kids pediatrician's office in the past so i was hoping that i could find a place closer to home and less waiting issues...i was apparently mistaken! i had been to another branch of there offices before and was always in and out in 30 minutes, less sometimes. i guess i took that for granted and assumed that since it's the same name, it would be the same quick in and out; i was very wrong in the end! so now i'll just clean and care for jordan's finger and watch it closely over the weekend, if it gets worse i'll call her pediatrician first thing monday and drive out there. i'll give up convenience for my time!

i missed a day blogging so no more counting days!

i didn't get a chance to blog last night so i'm not counting my days in the headlines anymore...i've been known to skip several days in a row so it's just better not to draw more attention to that then needs be! i did get my workouts in both today and yesterday, so far no body parts are screaming in protest so i guess i'm doing alright!

i've been doing the whole weight watchers thing for almost 3 months and i'm just not happy with the progress or really lack of good progress. i just figured that after 3 months i would be a lot closer to my goal or even at goal since i didn't/don't have all that much to lose. it's frustrating since i feel like i'm doing everything right, staying within my points, working out, drinking tons of water and still i've been in a sort of plateau/rut phase for the last 6 weeks or so! for nearly a month i gained and lost the same 1.5lbs, then i finally lost 2.5lbs about 2 weeks ago but am now back to the not losing/gaining .5lb again...it's a horribly, vicious cycle and i really don't want it to continue! i know i should be happy with the weight i have lost and i really am, but it just seems like i'm doing all the work of watching what i eat and exercising only to stay the same! it's so completely frustrating and really baffles my mind! i don't know what else to do to get the scale to move down rather than up! i'm really hoping that the changes to my workout schedule this week have made some changes and that i've finally gotten over the plateau...i'm not hoping too hard though!

and on top of the crappy way i feel about the whole lack of weightloss thing...my husband is now ticked at me about something i did, only i don't know what i did and now i'm on eggshells about everything. he just seems to have a way of making me feel like everything i do is wrong and it just agrivates me, especially when he won't tell what i did! so how am i supposed to change and fix things when i don't know what i did! i even started to blame myself for the now broken iron, when i know i didn't cause the iron to break nor would i, even if i could. somehow, though, it will come back to be my fault since i should be ironing shirts for him and had i done "my job" earlier i would have known that the iron was broken and could have therefore gone and bought another one before 10:30 at night. but, no i'm not doing my job and therefore when he went to iron his shirt tonight at 10:30, that's when we realized that the iron was broken. i did volunteer to go to the store, the store that i can't stand going to, to get a new iron so he would have an ironed shirt for tomorrow but he just said no in that tone that drives me nuts and causes me grief!

so, that's where i am today...frustrated by my lack of weightloss, not understanding why my husband is mad at me, and feeling guilty for whatever i did do or didn't do, for that matter! let's hope for a better tomorrow because i don't think i can have many more days like these before i just give up and crawl into some hole!

workouts: yesterday, stationary bike-35minutes and elliptical-35minutes
today, treadmill-65 minutes

eating: pretty good...i did have a cookie and beer tonight...really thought of having another beer if it weren't for the fact that i don't want to be up peeing all night!

water: lots and lots like i should be!

on a happy note to end this...i did get my new mp3 player today and have been putting new music on it since i opened the box earlier! i'm like a kid on christmas with a new toy!

day 3--true confession time!

so far, so good...i'm doing great with my workout and even enjoying it! but now i must confess that i was very glad that the cardio room i choose to use was relatively empty today because i had an awful case of gas and just couldn't help passing it nearly the whole time i was walking on the treadmill! apparently all that walking i was doing did a great job of moving things around in my stomach and intestines and such! i also nearly fell off the treadmill a couple times while i was laughing at the podcast of yesterday mornings ace & tj show...the people who were in the room around me probably thought i was some kind of nutcase!

so, it was another great workout day and i'll be heading back tomorrow for more!

workout: 60minutes on treadmill at various inclines and speeds

eating: pretty well, i've accpeted the fact that as long as there are homemade tollhouse cookies around, i'm going to eat them!

water: equal to my body weight again...or atleast feels that way!

made it through day 2!

well, it's day 2 of my new workout plan and i actually have developed some kind of plan to follow! i didn't make it to the y after dropping off stephen, but i did go a couple hours later and got in another good workout while jordan played in the child care. i worked out for a little more than an hour on the stationary bike and elliptical...my butt is not very happy with me or the seat on the bike that i chose to ride!

so i figured since i really like cardio more than anything else i would stick to that at least for a few weeks to see how i do. my plan is to do the bike and elliptical mon, wed, and fri...then i'll just walk on the treadmill on tues and thurs. that would make me workout a little more 3 days of the week and hopefully improve my backside a bit in the process! today was good with the bike but i'm going to have to figure out how to make the seat more comfortable since the only sore part i have now is from the seat! i really like the elliptical, too but can't ever manage to use the ones with the moving handles without looking like a spazz! so i generally steer clear of those unless they're the only choice!

tomorrow i'll try going later in the afternoon, i was told that between 12-3 it's pretty much empty. my plan is to go around 1:30, workout, shower and then go straight to get stephen after school...don't know if that'll work but i'm gonna try! i'm not really much into locker room showering, but whatever...i'm a big girl now so i should get over some of my old hang-ups!

i had a good exercise day, but again not so good eating...those darn cookies and busy night with soccer and cub scouts just didn't feel like cooking healthy!

workout--45 minutes on stationary bike and 25 minutes on elliptical

water--drank what feels like my own body weight!

eating--not so good...no pop tarts, but couple chocolate chip cookies and waffle fries from chick fil a! can't beat myself up though since it really doesn't do any good!

tomorrow is treadmill walking for an hour. the kids cooperated enough for me to get a good nap in today, hope i can get one tomorrow, too if i need it!

day 1 of new workout plan!

we joined the ymca as a family yesterday and today i started on my exercise plan! it's not really a plan yet, but it will be...right now it's just me going and using the cardio machines in no particular order for about an hour. today was a good enough workout to make me sweat and turn my face all red (that's my criteria for a good workout). i plan on going everyday during the week after i drop my son off at school...that may change if it's too crowded at that time of the morning. my daughter went with me today and loved the child care area so she'll be fine with me going everyday which really is a good thing.

i've been on weight watchers, for the third time, since mid july and i've not been happy with the results so far. so joining the y seems like the perfect thing for me and will hopefully jumpstart a better loss pattern...if there is such a thing! so i'm starting this blog to keep myself more accountable for workouts, eating, and all things related to that. i can already tell that today will be a bad eating day, but a good workout one!

Workout: 21 minutes on treadmill; 35 minutes on elliptical

Eating: I had pop tarts for breakfast (i just can't break that habit) and will be eating some of the chocolate chip cookies that my husband insisted that i bake!

Drinking: not enough water and too much coke zero...but it's zero calories so i don't really consider it a bad thing!

I felt a migraine coming on so i've been drinking lots of caffeinated beverages to try to help...it's worked but don't know if i'll get to sleep tonight!

my legs aren't too sore so bring on more exercise! can't wait for tomorrow...and i don't normally say that about exercise, as time goes on that will become very evident!