I've made a new decision!

I've decided that I'm going to like me and my body just the way they are...stretch marks, flabby skin, sagging small boobs and all! Now, this may very well be the wine talking (I've had a couple glasses tonight), but I have reached that decision none the less. I am going to be happy (or happier) with the body that i have right now. Yes, I will still exercise, but I won't kill myself trying to be something that I clearly am not inclined to be. I will exercise merely for the health benefits and the eating cookies and french fries benefit!

I will not beat myself up if I don't make it to the y every day of the week, as long as I make it 4 days and do other physical activities throughout the week I will be fine. I will walk around naked more...well, as long as the kids aren't around since they're reaching the age were mom doesn't need to be naked around them! And I, more importantly, will be comfortable in my own skin! I have realized, ever so slowly, that I really shouldn't complain so much about my weight. After all, I am the same weight now that I was when I was 18, give or take 5 pounds. I've had 2 kids and gained 45+ pounds with each pregnancy and to be near my high school weight after all that should make me do back flips...if I could do back flips, that is!

So, for my own continued bouts of sanity, I'm going to be happy and content with the way I look right now. Of course, if I happen to lose that last 5-10 pounds while not really caring, then so much the better for me...but I'm not going to stress over it. I have a daughter who is growing up and I don't want her to have the same messed up body image that I had. I want her to see that exercise is good for you and that it's ok to eat french fries, cookies, cake, and brownies on occasion. Exercise is good, these are words that I must repeat daily to myself as well! And I will be happy just the way I am!