so much for resolutions!

well, obviously, i'm no good at keeping resolutions! i haven't blogged in 3 weeks and i was supposed to blog at least once a week...man am i awful! but my excuses are really good...i promise! i've been busy (sitting on my ass and doing other things), i've got no time (because i'm sitting on my ass doing other things), i'm taking care of the house (not really, i'm neglecting that, too), and i'm spending more time with the family (again, not really...we do spent time together, it's just not getting in my way to blog). alright, well, maybe they are just excuses...not good in any way!

i have slightly been sticking to a workout routine of going to the y at least 4 times a week...except that this week i haven't gone at all! i did do the wii fit a couple days this week, but other than that i haven't done much of a workout. now, in my defense, jordan was sick earlier in the week and then i got sick as well...which is par for the course with a sick child. seems to be, at least in my house, that once one child gets sick, it's only a matter of days before we all get that same sickness but in different forms! during the cold and flu season it's almost like a merry-go-round...the illness just goes round and round in some vicious, runny nose, coughing cycle! i should feel blessed that at least it's not a stomach virus...those can be so much fun; watching the various stages of the virus taking a different toll on each of us! it makes me uneasy and nauseous just thinking about it!

so, that's where i am tonight...sick from the illness that my daughter started and feeling less than thin because i've been eating whatever i want, but not exercising like i should! but, hey i feel ok with all that...part of my liking myself more, no matter what! i'll make the same empty promise to blog more, make a fresh start of the resolution...hey, it's still january and i have the right to fall off the resolution wagon once! but, that's ultimately what it will be...an empty promise that will no doubt be broken yet again! here goes, anyway, with the real hope that i will blog at least once a week and stick to that resolution. i'm kinda tired of breaking resolutions so it's time for a fresh start!

I've made a new decision!

I've decided that I'm going to like me and my body just the way they are...stretch marks, flabby skin, sagging small boobs and all! Now, this may very well be the wine talking (I've had a couple glasses tonight), but I have reached that decision none the less. I am going to be happy (or happier) with the body that i have right now. Yes, I will still exercise, but I won't kill myself trying to be something that I clearly am not inclined to be. I will exercise merely for the health benefits and the eating cookies and french fries benefit!

I will not beat myself up if I don't make it to the y every day of the week, as long as I make it 4 days and do other physical activities throughout the week I will be fine. I will walk around naked more...well, as long as the kids aren't around since they're reaching the age were mom doesn't need to be naked around them! And I, more importantly, will be comfortable in my own skin! I have realized, ever so slowly, that I really shouldn't complain so much about my weight. After all, I am the same weight now that I was when I was 18, give or take 5 pounds. I've had 2 kids and gained 45+ pounds with each pregnancy and to be near my high school weight after all that should make me do back flips...if I could do back flips, that is!

So, for my own continued bouts of sanity, I'm going to be happy and content with the way I look right now. Of course, if I happen to lose that last 5-10 pounds while not really caring, then so much the better for me...but I'm not going to stress over it. I have a daughter who is growing up and I don't want her to have the same messed up body image that I had. I want her to see that exercise is good for you and that it's ok to eat french fries, cookies, cake, and brownies on occasion. Exercise is good, these are words that I must repeat daily to myself as well! And I will be happy just the way I am!

New Year! New Plans! New Attitude!

Well, we're 6 days into the new year and i've finally gotten around to blogging again! i was awful about working out during the last 3 weeks and i'm feeling it now when i finally get to the gym.

i have decided that i'm renewing my commitment to blogging at least once a week, just can't seem to make the commitment of daily blogging! and i will also be working out 5 days a week...either at the y or at home with the new wii fit that i got for christmas! so now i have no excuse for missing exercising!

i'd like to lose that last 10lbs that just don't seem to want to go away. granted it would probably be easier if i started eating better and exerecised, but i just can't seem to give up pop tarts, cookies, and french fries! so this is my year to recommit myself to working out and eating better...not neccessarily cutting out treats, just limiting them more!

so, while jordan plays with the various boxes hanging around the living room from christmas, i'll make out my mental to do list...making sure to put cleaning up the living room very close to the top! for now i'm off to implement my new plan and get myself to the y for a much needed, sweat inducing workout!